It has been a while guys. Sorry I'm one of those people who start things, goes hard for 2-3 months then stops completely. It's a problem I know! It's truly something I'm working on and trying to fix. Which is why i'm writting again. Anyways straight to the point now... I had an abdominoplasty!!
For those who do not know what it is it's a tummy tuck and liposuction surgery and it is very invasive! I was cut open from hip to hip, the excess skin was cut off and my abdominal muscles where sown together to correct my diastasis recti. I had around 9 pounds of access skin and fat removed. Crazy right! But I'm honestly so happy I went threw with it because it has improved my self- esteem dratically.
Before doing the procedure I was dealing with self doubt and a very negative self image. My self esteem was super low and this was affecting me in all aspects of life. Ladies you would understand me when I say if you do not feel attractive you definitely don't want to have sex with your spouse. You don't really want to go out and you don't want to go to any events where you have to wear something tight or form fitting. I was constantly trying to hide my belly being that it was the one spot that I could not fix. I blame it on genetics, having carried two children and if I'm really honest poor diet.
I was so frustrated with my body and my appearance. I hated the feeling of trying to pick something up and my belly getting in the way or trying on pants, skirts or dresses. It was such a depressing experience. I hated the way clothes fit me!
But I wasn't the only one who noticed this. My husband notice a change in me. I was constantly unhappy and complaining about my body. He knew how much my tummy area bothered me and he was actually the first one to encourage me to look at options.
I looked into doing a mini tummy tuck, but after seeing some before and afters I realized it wasn't for me. My biggest worry was not the surgery it's self, but the down time I would have to take. My children are four and two and I wasn't sure how they would do without me. Luckly I had many people around me that were willing to help watch them for the 6 week recovery I needed.
The day before my surgery I felt it all set in. I started thinking of all the things that could go wrong, like what if the anesthesia didn't work? What if I had uncontrollable bleeding? Then would snap myself out of it. I'm a big believer that what you put out with your thoughts and emotions will come back to you. Manifestation is a big part of my life so I started to change my thoughts to how good I would look and feel a year after it was all done. Which helped me focus on the goal and took me away from the horrable what if's.
The day of my surgery I questioned if the procedure was really worth the money. I thought could I just try harder to loose weight? Maybe it wouldn't be too bad to settle for the body I had now. But I knew I had lived in this body for years and it was not looking any better. Genetically all of the woman in my family have a FUPA or lower tummy pouch, but not only do we genetically have this misfortune, we also have a fatty pelvic area. You know...you're lady part, yup! That one! It stands out when wearing pretty much anything.
This was what made me want surgery. For that reason I let go of the what if's and got my tummy tuck and lipo.
Guys it was one of the best decisions of my life!!!
Ofcourse the day after and weeks, even months to come where hard. But they were worth it to me. I like who I see in the mirror. I feel strong, beautiful, confident and feminine. I can wear almost anything without being dissapointed. Jeans fit me great, dresses look flatering, I am able to walk into an event without trying to cover up. Most importantly my sex life is great! I look good and feel good therefore I am more "in the mood" then ever.
That being said surgery is not for everyone. The recovery process is long and you need a lot of help to recover properly. Also I have to mention that God gifted me when it came to my breasts and my backside. Not everyone will look the same. Your results will vary on your body type.
If you have been unhappy with your body for sometime and have been thinking of getting a procedure, look at all of your options. Do the research, visit different doctors and be realistic with your expectations.
Wishing you the best!
Warmly, B.
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